Hardest time of the year...

I don't want anything from anyone
Most times I'd rather be content by myself
I've been through a lot and feelings for others, or the lack of has
caused much unnecessary stress
I don't think any asshole in my life
Cries at night about something I did or about wishing to be where I am
If they are they're punks
I wish people would just let me know how they're feeling especially
after my feelings and intentions are clear
This is ridiculous...
Right now I'd rather work on my culinary and music career, have a son,
and he can be the love of my life
I won't need anything else, but him, my family and God (maybe more
children later)
Everyone else can have a wonderful life without me
That's how most of my life has seemed
I never felt important when I needed to
I know people love me and the confidence I have in myself is
wonderful, but the depression still remains
It's crazy...and now it's September 21, 2009 I believe it's my uncle
Bruce's birthday and tomorrow will be the "anniversary" of my grandma
Irene's death
This time of the year if so stressful to me
It's been that way since I was old enough to understand completely
My grandma died a week before our birthday in 1991
I turned 2 and she was to turn 67 I believe...
My one true wish is to be reunited with her one day...I really hope
that's possible
This goes for my grandpi James too
These are both of my mommy's parents
I really wish I could be with my mommy on her mommy and daughter's
birthday
It's really hard being down here in Florida at school at this time
because on top of all this stress, midterms are the week of my
birthday smh
So as of right now i'm up late again, unable to sleep..
Listening to Kid Cudi
I feel myself gettin more tired which is good, I need to sleep now
since I have class in the morning
I guess I'll write later...later ppls
-K-Town

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Sober

So I'm up now...kinda tired, but nothing compared to last night/morning...I'm "sober" now..me and Cherokee.. I'm done with all homework and everything (as far as I know :-/) I'm ready to get the homework for the upcoming week over with since next week is technically my birthday weekend. I have to do something incredibly unforgettable and enjoyable. That's all I ask for is to actually enjoy my birthday. The days before seem cool, but on the actual day for the past couple of years have been very sour and depressing. Whatever happens this year I hope it's not extremely bad, or I'm liable to seriously go off...my anger meter is at its all time high during the month of my birthday. My emotions are all over the place. I have a couple relatives on both sides of my family born in this month as well. Besides that I have the same birthday as my grandmother. She, however, died 18 years ago on the 22nd which is a week before our birthday and a day or two after her youngest son's. My great uncle's (R.I.P.) birthday is the day before ours too....**sigh** so yeah that's that...I guess I'll blog later..if not tonight or tomorrow at work... sometime tomorrow... Peace, Love, Happiness and all that good stuff...

-K-Town

My type of a guy....

Art, he has to be into this....any kind, doesn't matter...I write poetry, I used to write music, but I still read it...I play 2 instruments going on 3...I used to paint and draw my butt off...an artistic guy is the most attractive to me...because I can not only be attracted to his outside..but what's inside especially in his mind can keep me hooked...I need my guy to be as creative as me, and creative with me...I need him to subconsciously make me want to do better...I'm sleepy as ever writing this but I wanted to write a blog like this..so I may do a part two when I'm fully awake lol...So I'll just ramble on now..right now me and Cherokee are listening to Kid Cudi again (as usual)...I took hours to write this little bit that I am ...so...i started writing this at about idk a good 5-6 hours ago maybe more...i'll just leave it alone..im pushing 24hrs without sleep..omg..i'm weird...okay i'll ttyl..love peace and Kid Cudi :-)

P.S. I love love...and can't wait to fall in it...I'm going to go back to writing...

His Kids Are Off Limits

I'm so glad Russell Simmons wrote this article...check it out...I love this family! So everyone stop hating! Just because him and Kimora are prime examples of the way families should be regardless of who's together or not. I love them! Click on the link below to check out the article!
My Kids Are Off Limits

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British Man Killed Wife Over 'Single' Facebook Status

This is crazy!!! Short article, but must read...

British Man Killed Wife Over 'Single' Facebook Status

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Straight Chill

right now I opted to stay up and just chill instead of taking a much needed nap...I'm one class down for today and violin lessons for today start in about 30 mins...then 30 mins after that is done I have a 3 hour class :-/ yeah I know...then after that I have a quick meeting with a teacher, then hurry and eat dinner before the cafe closes....then an hour after that I work for 3 hours...10 weeks left of this..it needs to hurry up...lol anyway, the good news is my birthday is in 11 days!! yay, i'm excited i'm turning 20 aaawww so young but older at the same time...this is weird, people still think i'm anywhere from 12-15 years old..ridiculous i know..i surprise them when i say 19...now I'll be able to say 20..that'll really throw them for a loop! <<----who just says that (smh) anyway..I'm tired as hell and I have another test for my 3 hour class and I just remembered when have an experiment too! aaaahhh man I love experiments and all but geez I'm tired..I love experiments more when I'm awake! Aside from that..I'm highly upset my violin still hasn't arrived...enough said about that I'm angry I want to play NOW! Not just read pages dammit! In addition, I'm in a Chi State of Mind today too..everybody should expect attitude from me, or nothing at all...no words just facial expressions...it's one of those people are getting on my nerves days. I was walking to class earlier, listening to Cudi and some idiot decided to try to rip my headphones out of my ear..his hands got slapped so fast! Needless to say he did not succeed in being a jackass. I'm listening to Cudi right now as a matter of fact..none of my roomies would interrupt me like that besides to sing along because they appreciate good music...literally lol (G.O.O.D.) anyway...it's about that time..thinking about putting all this new stuff on my ipod as opposed to just my phone...so i'll do that now..then me and Cherokee are off to our 1:30s...ttyl!

-K-Town

Quick Update

Kid Cudi is playing now by the way...lol go get the album! NOW!

Randomness

Hey everyone wassup? I'm just sitting in bed now listening to music. Michael Jackson's Off the Wall is playing right now, and to be specific Off the Wall the song lol not the whole album. I'm waiting on Cherokee (Super Kawaii lol) to wake up so we can go to lunch. Funny thing is she might already be awake, but at the present moment I don't really feel like getting up yet to check. So after lunch I'll try to squeeze a nap in before work, dinner, and class. Yeah, hectic day I know lol you should see my schedule tomorrow...It'll be very rare I get a blog or tweet update in on a Friday unless I'm at work with nothing to do. That wouldn't be until the end of the day anyway at that..smh..now Janet Jackson ft. Kanye West is playing...these Jacksons! Gotta love em! I'll probably get some Kid Cudi in before I head to lunch...sounds like a plan..ttyl ppls! Have A Good Day!

-Kizzy

Listening to Kid Cudi...

I'm sorry if I offend anyone, but I absolutely llooovvveee my Midwestern hiphop artists, simply because they are just that: artists! Kanye, Common, Eminem, Cudi...and damn I mean don't let me forget R&B artists from my home region are just as hot! John Legend and a hell of a lot of the greats...besides Michael Jackson, we have Sam Cooke, Donnie Hathaway..sorry a bunch of others slip my mind at the moment. It amazes me how the Midwest is overlooked when it comes to a lot. Like I said a big chunk of the greats from plenty genres have been born and raised in the Midwest. So next time someone wants to forget about their elders...remember what your favorite song/album is...