Too many tears...

My heart is going out to everyone across the world tonight. I don't intend to write much because I should be getting sleep, but I have to write something. This is crazy. We lost Derrion last week to some nonsense, and another boy was found critically injured earlier this week. Both of these occurrences happened in my hometown Chicago, but I'm sadly sure there is violence going on in other parts of the country and world. I'm watching First 48 on A&E as well and all this violence we have towards each other is just crazy! I'm outraged at this. There are children being killed!! HEALTHY AND INNOCENT CHILDREN BEING KILLED!!! KILLED PEOPLE!! DO YOU HEAR ME??!!! PEOPLE MY AGE! IT'S CRAZY!!! Our youth hasn't even gotten a chance to see the world yet...let alone leave the country, state, or even city they are from. WHY ARE WE TAKING THEIR LIVES FROM THEM?!!! I can't be the only one feeling remorse for actions I did not commit! I am just deeply ashamed that this is what we are teaching our children and each other about how to treat each other. This is ridiculous..I can't write much more right now...Every name and face of our youth how have had their lives stolen from them are plastered to my head. It troubles me because my own cousin was one of those people. It is probably one thing I never told anyone, and I'm not even sure all of my family knows but yes my own cousin. I never ever got a chance to meet her. However, one month I hear she had a beautiful baby girl....next month I hear her boyfriend shot her dead....now my baby cousin who I'll probably never meet...will never know her mom and her dad (i believe he was the father) is obviously in prison for life. My cousin was my age at the time....I believe it was 17 or 18. Enough said for tonight. Allah, please keep us all in your hands...and help us to learn better ways and especially how to cherish and appreciate life and one another. Thank you for the life you have given me. Although I may not always do right, I appreciate being able to learn from my wrongs. Hopefully I will be able to one day effectively change my people (all people) with words of love, encouragement, respect, peace and unity. Continue to bless us. Thank you and I love you. Amen.

-Kizzy A. Kinte